People.

.... People are. So. Addictive. Man. That's all I can think to say. I love people. Okay so I know these two people. I hang out with them and talk to them all the time. But they've gone out of town on a very long trip. Well not that long. Only 8 days. But ... It seems like an eternity. I've been doing so well. They've been gone 4 days already. I was beginning to think I would be able to make it through the time without a problem because my life has been pretty good for the last 4 days. But.... I can feel it. Here come the withdrawals. And tomorrow when I have nothing to do because I don't have school tomorrow and I'll be home alone in the house... (that's the time when I usually go hang out).... There won't be anybody to help me get through the time. I'm going to be so miserable. But I'm going to try sooooo hard to not be too upset. But it probably won't work. Just sayin. Yea.... sorry... I know what you're thinking. "That girl's got issues." And its true. I do. Everybody does.
I used to blog a lot. It filled my social needs. But then I upgraded from blogging to actual people. And so I didn't have a need to keep up on my blog. And. That's alright cause nobody ever reads this anyway. But now that my friends are gone. I guess I'm back to blogging. For the next 4 days.... hmmm....
Well. It was my birthday. Yep. I'm the big 1 7. Feeling like I'm getting old. Not excited. But hey. I got my own phone for my birthday. It was the only present I got, and I had to pay for more than half of it. But hey. I mean. Anything is better than having to share a phone with your little sister right? yep. For me it is anyway. But you know what sucks? Having a phone, and not having anybody to text. Because the person I usually text is gone. Nobody else can hold a conversation with me for very long. It's so. frustrating. But hey. I'm gonna move on before I depress myself.
Later!

Oops

Well... haha oops. I've had a... well a good summer. But I forgot totally about my blog. Haha and way too much happened to try and catch up on it all.... I didn't do anything extraordinary... I just hung out with people, met a new friend, and talked a lot. In fact.... I still am talking a lot. As always.
And I'm laughing a lot too. I'm just in a really good mood right now because yesterday I babysat for a few hours and made almost $70.  Unfortunately... I lost the money right when I got home... but still. Haha I can't believe I made that much! I'm also in a good mood because of something someone said to me yesterday which I'm not gonna say but it made me really really happy and I felt super special. In a good way. haha. So hopefully nothing will happen tonight that will put my mood down. ... or else... haha jk! Anyway.
I'll try to keep up better next time. haha bye!

Isn't It Funny

Isn't it funny how the minute you think nothing else could happen, something does? Or even how the minute life starts turning out alright, something changes for the worst? It goes both ways though. Just when you think nobody in the world cares, someone shows you that they do. I wish there would be more of a constant in life. I wish everything didn't have to change so much. Life is fickle. I wish it wasn't. But there's nothing I can do to change that, and neither can you.
Some people can have such power over you! It is interesting to me how much one person's opinion can change everything. I think some people don't realize all the time just how powerful their words are. Well let me tell you something. Words are powerful things. Use them wisely and you can save a lifetime of misery for yourself. Use them foolishly and you will have many many regrets.

It Just Takes One

So life has been pretty rough on my family lately. I mean, our car breaks down every other week, we never have much money in the house, and just a few days ago our sewer line broke. It really sucks. But I was doing fine. Until one person in the family decided to go haywire. The whole week (which, for your information, started out GREAT for me) has been awful. I've learned this week that it only takes one person to bring everyone down. It only takes ONE person to make everyone else miserable. It only takes ONE ill-considered word to turn someone's life upside-down. And it not only affects the sender and receiver of the action, but everyone around them. Why do people choose this path, which can only lead to misery and unhappiness for large quantities of people?
It only takes one smile, one wave, one simple gesture of kindness or caring to make someone's day better. It only takes one kindly sentence to change someone's life.  So why can't more people show THIS side of themselves? It would make the world a much happier place. I really just don't understand it.
If you see someone who looks upset or lonely, don't just sit back and watch them. Go to them. Be kind to them. Who knows. Maybe you just saved their life.

Ask and ye SHALL RECEIVE!

Oh my goodness. I... MADE.... BEL CANTOS!!!!!!!! I was SOOO happy when I found out! Like, ecstatic. But then later that week I was feeling pretty down and like nobody cared. So I prayed and asked to know if anyone cared. So. The next day during seminary, one of the members of Bonnevaires came up to me and asked me if I made Bel Cantos. "Yes, I did!" I replied.
"You're going to have so much fun!" He said.
"Yea! I'm way happy!" I replied.
Then he told me "I knew you were going to make it all along."
"Oh really?" I queried.
"Yea! When you were with Shayann one time, I was out there talking to Mr. Dresen you know? And he told me you were going to make it in no matter what." He was all grins.
"Oh really?!" I said. "That's awesome!"
"Yea!" He said. "Congrats on making it!"
It was exactly what I needed. Now I feel a lot better. :D

All Better!

All better now, my emotions are back under control. I am actually feeling pretty great right now.
I am really starting to understand now just how much I love my family... well, my aunts and uncles mostly. I love my siblings but... I don't know.
My uncle took my mom, two sisters, and me out to dinner today. We went to Outback Steakhouse. It was a lot of fun. We ate dinner, sang happy birthday to one of my sisters, and it was great. Just what I needed. I hadn't realized just how alike my uncle and my mom are. My mom is the girl version of my uncle. Insane, I know! It's funny though. My uncle talks with his mouth nearly closed and my mom talks with her mouth a bit taller. It's interesting to observe them, they have same mannerisms, basic movements, and their personalities are very similar.
Anyway, it was just nice to see him. He and his family live in Florida and we don't see them very often. In fact, I haven't seen his kids since I was ten. It was so long ago!
I just... I feel the love that I have for my extended family starting to manifest a lot more than ever before. I don't know. It's weird. .... hmmm...

Mixed Emotions... They SUCK!

So today was my Grandpa Shepherd's funeral. It was very sad, and I even cried a little bit. I mean, he was my grandpa. I'll miss him a lot. I'm just glad I have something to remember him by forever. My grandpa was an avid quilter. He even made quilts that took up to 20 years. He learned how to quilt from the Relief Society people when he was on his mission in Hawaii. He made quilts for each of his grandkids. And I was lucky enough to receive one. I will cherish it always.
After the funeral, we had the luncheon, during which I met cousins I didn't even know I had, who happen to be my age, and very nice people. I ran around and played line tag with them today, then went outside and had a snowball fight outside. I hurt my hand catching a snow/frozen ice ball, but had a lot of fun anyway.
We got home and cleaned up for a while. Then my friend said "Hey, do you want to go swimming now?" and I told her I'd better ask my mom first... so I called her quickly, got an okay to go, ran downstairs quickly to let her know that Yes, I could go, but just as I pressed the enter key on the message, she told me "Sorry, just left. Come Friday, maybe."
Just what I needed. I was thinking that it would be nice to get out and just chill for a while but NO, they just happened to have to leave just as I was given the okay to go too. Couldn't she have waited 15 more seconds? ACK. Bad day.

Procrastination Station

You, my friend, are reading the blog of the Procrastination Station.
I had intended to spend my entire spring break preparing for Bel Cantos auditions. But I didn't. I sat around and vegged. It was nice, but I wish I had worked more on getting ready. Luckily, we have another week to prepare. But still...
Right now I am figuring out why I want to join the choir so that I can write it down on my audition sheet... (required).... I had a whole bunch of reasons before spring break, but now I've forgotten them so I am starting from scratch and they are due tomorrow. Great. This is why I shouldn't have procrastinated. It's not that I won't be able to figure out what to write, just that now I have to come up with the reasons all over again, and there are bound to be some left out.
I procrastinated my memorization for The Tempest. We have to be completely memorized by the end of this week, and I don't have much spare time this week anyway. At least I have the first act memorized, that is what we'll be rehearsing tomorrow. Luckily. But I will have to really start working on this.
Moral of the story: Don't procrastinate. It sucks.

Hasheesh!

Goodness, it's been a long time since I last posted. I'm a bad blogger. Bad. Bad.
I'll try and do better.
I did well on my choir final. I got 98/100 due to my failure to clap my hands one more time at the end of the song. I'm more nervous about this next final in choir. We have to sight sing, using the Sol Feg, with accurate dynamics, articulation, rhythms, and pitches. Last one was cake compared to this.
Also, auditions for Bel Cantos is coming up... next week! I'm nervous about that, but not as much as I thought I'd be. I'm not sure why... I think it's because my mind is totally confident. But the rest of me isn't totally confident. It's weird.
I'm such a procrastinator. We have until this coming Monday to be totally memorized for the play I'm in at school: The Tempest, by William Shakespeare. I am playing the part of Caliban, the savage and deformed [and deranged] slave. Why am I always the only cross dresser? In ALL the Shakespearean plays I've ever taken part in, I've had to play a boy. All the other girls who are playing boy parts have been able to switch their roles to girls, but I'm the only one who can't. I'm not complaining, I just think it's funny. Anyway we have until this coming Monday to be TOTALLY memorized, and I have only my first scene down. I know that everyone else is practically the same way. Ms. Dunn won't be happy about that.... But I figure she brought this upon her own self when she didn't cast us until three weeks ago... She was "too busy with other more important things." Whatever.
We perform on April 22nd and 23rd. I better start working on it!
This summer I'm going to be in the Sounds Choir production of Oklahoma. I hear it's a good musical, and can't wait to start rehearsing! I'm a bit nervous though. This is the first Sounds Choir production I've been in since Annie Get Your Gun, and I don't know very many people who are in them usually. I'm sure I'll do fine though. Haha.
Well that's all the jibber-jabbering I'm doing for today. Bye for now~!

Hmmm....

New year! It's come and gone. I'm getting old... haha not! Well, not OLD, but older than I was. Just FYI the Christmas concert went well.

Finals are coming up... next week! I'm so nervous, but I think I'll do well.

New favorite song. The top Bonneville choir sang it at our Christmas concert. Lyrics are as follows:

Green and silver, red and gold

And a story born of old.

Truth and love and hope abide,

This Christmastide, this Christmastide.

Holly, ivy, mistletoe

And the gently falling snow.

Truth and love and hope abide,

This Christmastide, this Christmastide.

From a simple ox’s stall

Came the greatest gift of all.

Truth and love and hope abide,

This Christmastide, this Christmastide.

Children sing of peace and joy

At the birth of one small boy.

Truth and love and hope abide,

This Christmastide, this Christmastide.

Let the bells ring loud and clear,

Ring out now for all to hear.

Truth and love and hope abide,

This Christmastide, this Christmastide.

Trumpets sound and voices raise

In an endless stream of praise.

Truth and love and hope abide,

This Christmastide, this Christmastide.

Green and silver, red and gold

And a story born of old.

I love this song! It's so inspiring! gah! I don't think I'm quite ready for the Christmas season to have left yet. Oh well...
Best of wishes to you, have a great 2010!