Today I found out

Today has been a rather enlightening day for me.

We all have those people who we get along with, so very well. 

The people we care about so, so much and would do anything for. 

For me, that was my friend Chase. 

I would do anything for that guy. 

We helped each other through some really hard times. 

But we put each other through some really hard times, too.

And ultimately, we grew apart.

But there was a time when I couldn't imagine life without him.

There was that day.

The day when I realized that our friendship, the friendship that meant so much to me, the friendship that helped me get back on my feet, wasn't enough for him.

He was just too hurt, too sad.

He was enough for me, he put a smile back on my face.

Even when I didn't want to smile, he could make me do it.

Even when I thought there was nothing in this world that could help me.

He managed to do it, somehow.

But one day I realized that to him, our friendship wasn't enough.

It wasn't enough to cheer him up, wasn't enough to give him hope.

There was that day.

Or rather, it was a series of days.

He was slipping away from me.

Being around me wasn't the pinnacle anymore.

It was the trough.

The chore.

I pretended not to know, but I did.

And it cut me deep.

Over time, it healed up.

But there remained a scar. 

Things were never quite the same.

There was that day.

That day when I discovered The Wedge. 

He found someone else who did all the things I couldn't.

I was hurt, but I understood.

We remained good friends.

After all the hard times we had been through together, we remained stronger than ever.

But something was different.

His other half didn't like me.

And I didn't like him.

He tried to push us together but, as with magnets that have the same polarization, we broke apart and ended up further away than ever.

There was that day.

That day when he blew me off.

That day when I gave up.

That day when he asked me what was wrong.

The day that I told him, that day was bad.

Every day The Wedge got deeper and deeper.

Always trying to bind us back together, always pretending nothing was wrong.

There was that day.

That day that he moved.

That day we hung out.

That day we realized how much we missed each other.

That day we promised we'd be better.

And then there was today.

Today I found out.

It is possible to care to the point of hurting, and never be enough for someone.

It is possible to wish the best for someone and wish you never knew them.

Today I found out.

But today was the day that the wedge was the deepest.

Today I found out.

He didn't tell me.

Today I found out that my friend

moved on.