Bitching

Sometimes I make friends. And sometimes I get pissed when those friends talk to other friends. Which is stupid, I know. Jealousy is bad in relationships, blah blah blah. It's not really like I'm pissed when they just TALK to other people. It's mostly just when the talking to other friends gets in the way of them being MY friend when I need them. Which happens a lot. I tend to have this thing where I need to talk to someone about something so bad, but the window of beginning to talk lasts about five minutes. And since I bend over backwards to be there for people when they need me, I get very frustrated when they aren't there for me. And I try to be considerate of the fact that people aren't available for just five minutes somewhere randomly in their day. It's kind of hard for someone to be there for me when I only want them to be there for five small minutes. But sometimes it's frustrating because I end up having nobody to bitch about life to. And there are some seriously miserable things going down!
So anyway. I guess I'm mad because I have this roommate who has a ton of problems, and she bitches about them all the time. To everyone. And she bitches right over the top of me whenever I try to say something.
Yeah girl, your health problems suck. I'm sorry. It's miserable.
That doesn't make the pain I'm feeling any better.
Maybe I don't have health problems either but my best friend is moving away and I know what that's like. I'm scared too, and I don't have your health problems so finding someone to bitch about is hard when you're standing there talking about all your horrible problems right behind me, and then how your friend is leaving you on top of it all.
I GET IT. YOUR LIFE SUCKS.
My friend is leaving me too, and now I don't have anyone to talk to because you're bitching to everyone and nobody has time to talk to me so that I can bitch.
And sometimes, I just need to bitch.